Truth behind the motivation

This may come as a surprise. I am unveiling something that people may have an opinion about and good for you….but this is my blog. It’s my right. It’s my life.

Many of you have seen my workout posts, the ones that show I wake up at 5:15 or 5:30am to work out for an hour at the local Planet Fitness. There is a motivation driver that I wish to share with you. I want to reveal it and shine light on it so it’s no longer in the dark.

Towards the end of last year I was tipping the scales and the number I saw was very disheartening. My face was becoming unrecognizable in the mirror. My career required self-self promotion and photography, seeing photos of myself made me sad. It was a challenge to smile knowing that my deepest, darkest self loating was going to be caught in a still image.

August of 2023 I found a dr that was covered by my insurance that I was hoping could help me. I really thought I was going to have nutritional counseling and coaching. I was weighed, asked what my diet consumed of and my blood pressure taken. This last step was something I was consistently beginning to dread. I saw those numbers slowly creeping up, just like my age was and those two things on an increasing scale were not favorable. They were almost co-morbidity.

So my age, my blood pressure and my weight was increasing simultaneously and here I was sitting in a bariatric drs office. My intent wasn’t to discuss surgery YET. I came interested in managing my intake and generally increasing my movement. As I walked away from the appt, I was given a prescription for medication and that is when I entered what I call The Hunger Games!

This hot ticket prescription was one that couldn’t be found but if I could, it was magically going to be my savor. It was a ghost in the pharmacies. I stayed persistent changing meds with help from the dr until I found something that was reasonably available and that took a mere SIX months to find. This is when Zepbound was introduced into my life.

Zepbound is a anti-diabetic medication that helps with weight loss. It is one of the those drugs that can be expensive, hard to locate and it can effect people with terrible side effects that discourage people from using them. These drugs can change someone’s life and I want to share my journey with you amongst other challenges, hence this blog.

As I begin my weekends, its shot time! I inject myself at nighttime, expecting a small bruising at my injection site the next week. I experience very few side effects and I expect a full nights sleep and to wake up ready not to have a desire to eat for several meals. Even my appetite for coffee will diminish.

As I enter my 4th week of the 7.5mg dose, I will gladly share a recap of my journey thus far. After almost 12 weeks of injections accompanied by exercising 4-5 days a week, I am at about a 20lb weight loss. I am hoping to hit that 20lb mark before my next doctors appt, but my real NSV will be in what my blood pressure and pulse rate will be at that visit.

Are you surprised that I am one of the many Americans that have chosen to enter The (Anti) Hunger Games? The search for control, to modify my own morbid obesity, and to encourage a longer, healthier life? Forgive me if you feel as though I am un-deserving because I amnot someone who diagnositically stepped over the Type 2 diabetic threshold. I deserve this medication just as well as the next person who felt the inward desire to create boundaries around themselves to save their life.

When I wake up in the wee early hours of the morning to wrap up my boobs and lace up my shoes, I do that work to create new habits that will allow for a more successful transition to a healthier me. Judge me all you want, I am creating a solution and I see what you eat, boo!

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